I know we haven't spoken for a while but I was just thinking about you and it kind of made me smile, there are so many things to say and I thought I could put them in a letter because it might be easier and the words might come out better.
I know I probably shouldn’t be telling you this but there are so many things I will like to know the answers to; like why did we let our love die, was it me, was it you, what did we do to kill it, did you ever loved me, was I just another one along the way, do you love someone else? I just wish I could press rewind and re-write every line of our story.I've been trying so hard to get you out of my mind in so many ways but it’s not getting any better as each day goes by. I feel lost and confused sometimes and the nights are really rough because loneliness can be your worst enemy when you have a heartbroken.
I know that you are doing fine and I really didn't mean to ramble on this again but there are so many feelings that remain since you've been gone; I guess you thought that I would put it all behind me by now but it seems there's always something right there to remind me of you like a stupid joke or something on the TV. Sometimes when I hear a song that reminds me of you I get that same old feeling and my heart just aches so badly and I wish that I could press rewind and turn back time to have you in my life again.
I still keep all of your pictures and I stare at them every now and then to try to remember how it felt when we use to be together, I try to erase the way your kisses taste but something like that cannot be forgotten that easily, they way that you used to touch me, look at me, your smell, your scent, your skin and those eyes that I could stare for hours and get lost in them.
Now that you’re gone waking up is hard to do and sleeping's impossible too, everything I do and everywhere I go it reminds me of you, it’s harder everyday and I feel like I've lost my equilibrium, my pride and my life because you took all that was left of me.
Why did you heal my heart when it was wounded, why did you fill it up when it was empty, why did you bring me back to life if you were going to kill me again?
Yes indeed, I'm alone again and here comes emptiness crashing on me. So now it's just another lonely day and I wish there was something that I could say or do to make you come back to me, I can resist anything but the temptation from you. Yesterday seems like a lifetime ago, because I held you so close in my heart and now you grow further from me with every fallen tear of my eyes.
I guess that now is too late to realize our mistake we're just not right for each other. Love has slipped away, left us only as friends and we almost seem like strangers, all that's left between us are the memories we shared of times we cared for each other. There's nothing left to do but go our separate ways and pick up all the pieces left behind us and start over. It wouldn't have worked out anyway; maybe someday, somewhere along the way another love will find us. In the mean time I will keep crying for you, lying awake at night, dreaming of you and calling your name. I know is too late to drag in the past but did I disappoint you or leave a bad taste in your mouth, did I ask too much, more than a lot?
My days break and my mind aches when I think of you because I find all the words of kindness you once said and they still linger on me. There are times when all the things you said fill-up my head I can’t forget you. So please if you don't love me like I love you return the love you took from me. But if you cry at night the way I do; would you please let me know?
I know I probably shouldn’t be telling you this but there are so many things I will like to know the answers to; like why did we let our love die, was it me, was it you, what did we do to kill it, did you ever loved me, was I just another one along the way, do you love someone else? I just wish I could press rewind and re-write every line of our story.I've been trying so hard to get you out of my mind in so many ways but it’s not getting any better as each day goes by. I feel lost and confused sometimes and the nights are really rough because loneliness can be your worst enemy when you have a heartbroken.
I know that you are doing fine and I really didn't mean to ramble on this again but there are so many feelings that remain since you've been gone; I guess you thought that I would put it all behind me by now but it seems there's always something right there to remind me of you like a stupid joke or something on the TV. Sometimes when I hear a song that reminds me of you I get that same old feeling and my heart just aches so badly and I wish that I could press rewind and turn back time to have you in my life again.
I still keep all of your pictures and I stare at them every now and then to try to remember how it felt when we use to be together, I try to erase the way your kisses taste but something like that cannot be forgotten that easily, they way that you used to touch me, look at me, your smell, your scent, your skin and those eyes that I could stare for hours and get lost in them.
Now that you’re gone waking up is hard to do and sleeping's impossible too, everything I do and everywhere I go it reminds me of you, it’s harder everyday and I feel like I've lost my equilibrium, my pride and my life because you took all that was left of me.
Why did you heal my heart when it was wounded, why did you fill it up when it was empty, why did you bring me back to life if you were going to kill me again?
Yes indeed, I'm alone again and here comes emptiness crashing on me. So now it's just another lonely day and I wish there was something that I could say or do to make you come back to me, I can resist anything but the temptation from you. Yesterday seems like a lifetime ago, because I held you so close in my heart and now you grow further from me with every fallen tear of my eyes.
I guess that now is too late to realize our mistake we're just not right for each other. Love has slipped away, left us only as friends and we almost seem like strangers, all that's left between us are the memories we shared of times we cared for each other. There's nothing left to do but go our separate ways and pick up all the pieces left behind us and start over. It wouldn't have worked out anyway; maybe someday, somewhere along the way another love will find us. In the mean time I will keep crying for you, lying awake at night, dreaming of you and calling your name. I know is too late to drag in the past but did I disappoint you or leave a bad taste in your mouth, did I ask too much, more than a lot?
My days break and my mind aches when I think of you because I find all the words of kindness you once said and they still linger on me. There are times when all the things you said fill-up my head I can’t forget you. So please if you don't love me like I love you return the love you took from me. But if you cry at night the way I do; would you please let me know?
JPablo Marín.
