Staring at my window …

While I stare at my window and watch the rain fall down and listen to the relaxing sound of it I can’t stop thinking about everything that is outside; all of that world that I still don’t know, all of those people that I will never meet and all of the dreams that I haven’t fulfill. I never had a hard time letting people in because I tend to see the good in everyone and at least give them a chance but I have the toughest time when it comes to let someone go.

I guess that all I wanted to say is that it was good for me and I hope that it was good for you too, I Know that no matter what I’ll say it won’t change the way you feel. I know that we tried our best but sometimes love just slips out of sight and we can’t seem to find it.

There’s just one thing that I want you to know before you go, just one thing that you've got to know and is that no one will ever touch me that way that you did; I know that I’ll never be the same without you here and that I will hide myself behind my tears. I know that when it comes to love there is no guarantees, no alibis and that’s how love is supposed to be and not a re-creation of our minds. I thought that we were happy and even though “I know we could never stay together” I never gave up on hope, even though I know that you did a long time ago. I just can’t stop thinking about how it could have been if we could just start all over again?

I know it will take some time to get over you but only God knows how long. I think that as soon as my heart stops breaking, aching and anticipating one of your kisses or that one “I Love You” will slip away from your lips, I will be remembering all those good times, all of those promises we once made, all of those nights holding you close and feeling like I had heaven on earth.

Thank you for being there even when you were not, thank you for letting me love you and for all of those great memories that I will always cherish but most important thank you for trying to love me.

JPablo Marín.