Won’t Let It Die!!!

I’ve been going through a lot of changes lately and also through some rough times and all of those things combined got me thinking a lot and I find myself in a controversy because it all got me very confused and skeptical about love.

I’m known for always being a dreamer, someone very romantic, passionate and a true believer of happy endings. Life has given me the opportunity of experience passion, lust, infatuation and love; on my path I met all of these great people that have taught me different things and brought happiness in my life in a way or another but as they say “Nothing In This World Is For Free”, they also took something from me: Some took my innocence, some my trust, some others my pride, my money and a only a few of them took little pieces of my heart.

Love is a very strange thing because supposedly it has nothing to do with the heart or feelings but actually from a chemical reaction of our bodies and brains; but if that’s true why does every time that we break up or someone hurts us we say that we have a heartache and we do feel a special kind of pain that cannot be compare with a physical one and that it hurts just as bad or sometimes even worse.

After so many heartaches and disappointments my illusions started to go away and I began to think that dreams were just that and that there are no happy endings only good moments as a good friend of mine said. I started to become coldhearted and build up some walls so no-one will hurt me again, but the truth is that I cannot change who I am and I am not giving up on the things that once were my strength and what motivated me to go on no matter how many times I failed. Nowadays relationships don’t last long enough or don’t work-out because of the lack of commitment and the ability of working things up, people somehow just decided to give up on what they had because they don’t want to fight for it and a soon as they find an obstacle on the road they take the one next to it that looks shorter and brighter. This kind of behavior scares me very much because soon there will be no more dreamers like me and it’s going to be just like with fairies; people will start saying that there’s no such thing as love and it’s going to drop dead in any moment and one day no-one will ever know that existed and it will be just another tale written in a book.

I don’t know who you are, where are you at, what things you like or dislike, what’s your favorite color or what’s your favorite movie but I want you to know since this very moment that I do believe in love and that I know that you are out there waiting for me and I am here waiting for you, I want you to know that I love you very much and that I know what we’ll be very happy together someday.

I am not giving up on you, on me, on us. Not going to give up on love. I’ll be here waiting for you and I hope that you’ll be waiting for me too. Live, believe, dream, enjoy and love because you never know when we will meet.

JPablo Marín B.