After a break up you're suppose to take all the good moments and keep 'em for as long as you think is necessary and as for the bad ones you need lo learn from them so you won't make the same mistakes again in the future.
Love is suppose to be free, honest, come out naturaly and your suppose to always give your best effort but also understand that you can't change people or expect something from them 'cause you migth never get the results that you desire since we are all different and you can't force anyone to be someone they're not. We have the wrong idea of love and we all expect different things from it because of what we've been taught, what we've heard about from others, songs that we've listened to, movies that we've seen and books that we've read. That is how we buil our own fantasy and how we percive love, that's why we create dependence on others and when they are gone or no longer with us our whole world crumbles down and we seem to loose perspective of our path and our normal life beat. I've been trying to take myself into this journey where I'm suppose to be strong, do things I like ... hang out with my friends more often and see how wonderful life is and all that there is to live for.
I've been trying my best to carry on and just let go, but it's not any easy and there are times when I make myself believe that I'm fine and that soon I'll be ok. Then comes the night time and I get very ansious and stressed out; I light-up a cigarret and as I watch the beautiful moon being still and bright as if it was trying to embrace me with it's magnificent power I start thinking again about all of those times when I was with my beloved one and how happy I used to be, the funny thing is that this was not long ago but somehow it seems like it's been ages and as the days pass by I feel my body drying out since my soul is leaking day by day because of your absense, I don't smile much anymore and almost nothing caughts my attention. I'm drawning in my own pitty and I hate it cause I try to be strong, I don't cry on public but my heart is wipping on the inside out. I want you, I need you. When I'm able to get some sleep I dream of you and I see you smilling, I watch you while you sleep, I draw your body with my kisses, I make you mine everytime and I look deep into your eyes and I tell you how much I love you and that everything will be fine; I tell you that I need you and that you can count on me no matter what. Then I start to see blurry, you vanish on me and then it's just a glance of you, I can't hear you anymore and while I'm blind out by the deep mist; my arms can't reach you anymore, I get very scared and I start crying my lungs out! ... and that's when I wake-up and I realize that it was just a dream.
I need you to please get out of my heart, please stop messing up with head and the nightly visits have come to an end aswell 'cause I feel that I can't take it anymore. I know that all of this is just a trick that my mind is playing on me but there's gotta be a way to stop it. I know that you didn't mean to hurt me but look what you have done! I'm present physically but my mind and soul left with the wind and they won't come back till they have a safe shelter to inhabit. I need time to heal, time to forget and forgive and when that happens you'll be just a memory and I won't be me anymore.
Let the time pass as fast as it can so the wind will give me back what it took from me when you walked out of my life ...
JPablo Marin.
7/29/08
Love is suppose to be free, honest, come out naturaly and your suppose to always give your best effort but also understand that you can't change people or expect something from them 'cause you migth never get the results that you desire since we are all different and you can't force anyone to be someone they're not. We have the wrong idea of love and we all expect different things from it because of what we've been taught, what we've heard about from others, songs that we've listened to, movies that we've seen and books that we've read. That is how we buil our own fantasy and how we percive love, that's why we create dependence on others and when they are gone or no longer with us our whole world crumbles down and we seem to loose perspective of our path and our normal life beat. I've been trying to take myself into this journey where I'm suppose to be strong, do things I like ... hang out with my friends more often and see how wonderful life is and all that there is to live for.
I've been trying my best to carry on and just let go, but it's not any easy and there are times when I make myself believe that I'm fine and that soon I'll be ok. Then comes the night time and I get very ansious and stressed out; I light-up a cigarret and as I watch the beautiful moon being still and bright as if it was trying to embrace me with it's magnificent power I start thinking again about all of those times when I was with my beloved one and how happy I used to be, the funny thing is that this was not long ago but somehow it seems like it's been ages and as the days pass by I feel my body drying out since my soul is leaking day by day because of your absense, I don't smile much anymore and almost nothing caughts my attention. I'm drawning in my own pitty and I hate it cause I try to be strong, I don't cry on public but my heart is wipping on the inside out. I want you, I need you. When I'm able to get some sleep I dream of you and I see you smilling, I watch you while you sleep, I draw your body with my kisses, I make you mine everytime and I look deep into your eyes and I tell you how much I love you and that everything will be fine; I tell you that I need you and that you can count on me no matter what. Then I start to see blurry, you vanish on me and then it's just a glance of you, I can't hear you anymore and while I'm blind out by the deep mist; my arms can't reach you anymore, I get very scared and I start crying my lungs out! ... and that's when I wake-up and I realize that it was just a dream.
I need you to please get out of my heart, please stop messing up with head and the nightly visits have come to an end aswell 'cause I feel that I can't take it anymore. I know that all of this is just a trick that my mind is playing on me but there's gotta be a way to stop it. I know that you didn't mean to hurt me but look what you have done! I'm present physically but my mind and soul left with the wind and they won't come back till they have a safe shelter to inhabit. I need time to heal, time to forget and forgive and when that happens you'll be just a memory and I won't be me anymore.
Let the time pass as fast as it can so the wind will give me back what it took from me when you walked out of my life ...
JPablo Marin.
7/29/08
