Dear Love,

It’s been so many rainy afternoons, so many chilly perfect moon nights, so many other beautiful mornings without waking up with your warm body next to mine.
My whole body misses you, my room feels so empty and big without you, my pillows still smell like you and my lips don’t ever want to kiss any other lips but yours.
I know I made a mistake but what’s wrong with loving someone so much that you don’t ever want to be any further than what you can or don’t want anybody to get close enough so they have a chance to see how lucky I was. My insecurity pushed you away but if I ever been certain about something is what I feel for you. Every single thing I do, see or hear ... it reminds me of you.
They say that time heals everything ... but I’m still waiting on it. Our love to me was like a candle because it lighted up my life, it kept me warm, it made me see things a bit clearly though it didn’t last long enough; I can’t believe that something that seemed so strong and perfect is now just a memory.
I don’t want to live in the past and I know that I have to move on (which I’m doing) but I really felt like I had found my best half and that my life was finally going to end up like a fairy tale but when reality hit me, the punch was strong enough to make me realize that tales are just that ... tales, and that the real world doesn’t stop spinning for you and life is harsh.
Now you want us to be friends and I agree with that but I'm not sure if I can do it because I know that besides being lovers we were friends as well, things have changed and circumstances are a lot different now. I will give it a try because I know that you’re special. I guess that despite everything I still hope that we’ll get back someday, cause you’re everything I always dreamed about.
I can’t tell what destiny have planned for us, but all I know is that you have left your prints all over me and you really got very deep into my soul and nothing can change what you mean to me, you’ll always be a big important part of my life and I thank God for putting you on my way, my heart still aches and it will be like this for quite awhile till the day I finally feel ok with my own self; till then every time I feel this pain that harms my body and poisons my soul I will regret not having you in my life as I wanted.

I will always love you,



JPablo Marin.
06/02/07