Happy Holidays!

First of all I want to greet all my readers (if there’s one at least jejeje) my great friends, my family and those that where my inspiration for the things I write.
I started this blog last year back in August posting some of the things that I wrote in my journal and then as the time passed by I kept on posting new things every once in a while until the blog became kind of my journal online.

I will keep on with this blog for as long as I have the necessity of expressing myself on writing like I always do and for as long as I have motives to do so. These words of mine that I expose here; they all come from deep in my heart and all the stories are based on my own experiences and also things that I like and that represent something to me.

Right now that will be all and I have nothing else to say but thank you for everything, to each and every one of you that are part of my life. Have yourselves a Merry Christmas; enjoy with those who you love and also have a Happy new year!!! (Don’t drink too much though! Lol)

XOXO JP Marín B.

It's Xmas Bitch!

This is a very special time of the year for most of us and since Ms. Spears is my favorite obsession and I’m sure is the same for some of you; I wanted to post some of Britney’s moments for Christmas time so we all get in the mood!

ENJOY!!!

1st It's Britney's song " My Only Wish This Year" wich include lyrics to sing slong with her:

Then we have her 1st appearance in for Christmas at the Rockefeller Center singing "Silent Night". (Personally I think that she sings like an angel in this presentation)

Britney's Xmas Commercial for Pepsi Blue:

After that we have The Christmas Time with Britney; she is presenting us some of her fragrances to give out for a perfect Xmas present:

Then we have the lighting up the tree at the Rockefeller Center in NY, this year:

This Year Ellen DeGeneres invited Britney over to celebrate Xmas a very special way and as usual Ellen Make us laugh like no-one else so here it is. I hope you like it and laugh your asses off as I did:

Here’s Britney’s message from her official website to all of her fans thanking us for making Circus N.1 album and wishing us a Merry Christmas.

I hope you enjoyed all of these videos and now here’s a lil present; our beloved Britney Spears in some of her funniest and dorkiest moments:

Two Way Path!

Love; your cruel but honest
You gave me power and weakness

You’re tender but rough at times
You're sweet and sour

Love; the most beautiful word you’ll ever know
And the biggest lie you could ever hear.

You make me whole; you complete me
Numb, empty, cold and shatter without you.

Love; you’re brave, strong and passionate
Co-dependent, weak and obsessed in your absence.

Your magic, sun-light, happiness and truth
Disappointed, dark, sad and smothered when you’re gone.

Love; you’re music, rhythm and beats
Quiet, silent and blue while you’re away

Innocence, laughter, joy and gladness you make me feel
Aching, deceiving, lonely, restless and selfish with the lack of you

Love; can be many things and as it gives you the sensation of flying without wings, it can also crush you dawn with no soft landing.

Love; can be the heaven on earth but it can also drag you to hell.

Be careful who you trust your love to; be careful who you let in

‘Cause Love is a two way path!

JP Marín.

I DEDICATED MY HEART TO YOU, REMEMBER?

1.Sailing
Christopher Cross
http://www.lyrics007.com/Christopher%20Cross%20Lyrics/Sailing%20Lyrics.html

2.Vanilla Sky
Paul McCartney
http://www.lyricsfreak.com/p/paul+mccartney/vanilla+sky_20105570.html

3.Fast Car
Tracy Chapman
http://www.lyrics007.com/Tracy%20Chapman%20Lyrics/Fast%20Car%20Lyrics.html

4.Just The Two Of Us
Bill withers
http://www.sing365.com/music/lyric.nsf/Just-the-two-of-us-lyrics-Bill-Withers/F0D7981C044E27D648256C31002C7E30

5.Directions

Josh Rouse

http://www.stlyrics.com/lyrics/vanillasky/directions.htm

6.Chasing Cars
Snowpatrol
http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/snowpatrol/chasingcars.html

7.Me Muero
La Quinta Esacion
http://www.planetadeletras.com/index.php?m=s&lid=128123

8.Somos Novios

Andrea Bocelli feat. Christina Aguilera
http://www.sing365.com/music/lyric.nsf/Somos-Novios-lyrics-Andrea-Bocelli/4EE73A2649E205EA48257155000756F6

9.Have I told you lately

Rod steward

http://www.lyrics007.com/Stewart%20Rod%20Lyrics/Have%20I%20Told%20You%20Lately%20Lyrics.html

10.Never Be The Same
Christopher Cross
http://www.lyrics007.com/Christopher%20Cross%20Lyrics/Never%20Be%20The%20Same%20Lyrics.html

11.I'll Be Over You

Toto

http://www.lyricstime.com/toto-i-ll-be-over-you-lyrics.html

12.Para No Decir Adios

La Quinta Estacion

http://www.lyricstime.com/la-quinta-estacion-para-no-decirte-adi-s-lyrics.html

13.So Amazing
Beyoncè
http://www.lyricstime.com/beyonce-so-amazing-lyrics.html

14.Can We Still Be Friends?
Todd Rundgren
http://www.lyricsfreak.com/t/todd+rundgren/can+we+still+be+friends_20138338.html

Britney: For The Record!!!

"I sit there and I look back and I'm like, 'I'm a smart person. What the hell was I thinking?"

Britney Spears' life has been filled with speculation and scrutiny over the last few years. In "For the Record," a documentary that aired on MTV on Sunday night, the pop singer finally opened up about her life in the spotlight. "I have good days and I have bad days," she said in the special.

"Sometimes it's too much."

In the special, Spears talked about being a mom, her public breakdown and her breakups with Justin Timberlake and Kevin Federline. "For the Record" also provided a behind-the-scenes look at her return to the pop scene as she worked on promotion for her album Circus, which included video shoots for "Womanizer" and the title track.

Explaining her breakdown, Spears said that she had let the wrong people into her life. "[It was] a really bad time in my life. ... I'm not gonna sugarcoat it and say I was OK," she admitted. "Maybe I had traumatic stress. I just remember I did not want to be at home. When I was in my car, I was driving and I was going somewhere."

Despite the hard times, the singer said she tries not to let them get her down. "Normal is different for everybody," she said, later adding, "It could be a lot worse. There are people out there who have it a lot worse than I do."

She also admitted that even though her life seems hectic, what with constantly being surrounded by assistants, handlers and the paparazzi, "I choose to be a happy person. If I have a bad day, I get angry with myself."

Britney's dad, Jamie Spears, and her longtime manager, Larry Rudolph, were also featured in the documentary, as well the pop singer's mentor, Madonna. "I admire her as an artist," the Material Girl said, adding that she sees a lot of herself in the young singer.
But Spears isn't just a pop star, she's also a mother to her two sons. And they are the people in her life that help her hold onto her faith. "I see my babies and say ... you have to believe in God," she said. "How can these two babies be here without there being a God?"

At the end of the documentary, she said she hopes people understand that she's just like anybody else. "I love what I do. I love my babies," she said. "And I work really hard." She added, "It's weird. You can see the cruelest part of the world but then on the other side you see the most beautiful part; is like you go from one extreme to the next and their both worth it cause you couldn’t see one without the other. But the cruel part is dam cruel and you never forget it, But that heaven is heaven ... so it's like I've been to both places."

In order to stay on that beautiful side, Spears said she's avoiding the people and things that hurt her: "Now I try to avoid situations from the past that may threaten me. ... I go through life like a Karate Kid."










If you didn't have the chance to see the documentary or if you want to watch it all over again, here's the link for MTV's website (HQ videos):



http://www.mtv.com/videos/misc/322847/britney-for-the-record-final-countdown.jhtml#id=1600472

Crying

I was alright for a while
I could smile for a while

But I saw you last night
You held my hand so tight
As you stopped to say hello
Thou you wished me well
You couldn't tell
That I've been crying over you
Crying over you
And you said "so long"
Left me standing all alone
Alone and crying,crying, crying, crying

It's hard to understand
But the touch of your hand
Can start me crying

I thought that I was over you
But it's true, so true
I love you even more than I did before
But darling, what can I do?
For you don't love me
And I'll always be
Crying over you, crying over you

Yes now you're gone
And from this moment on
I'll be crying, crying, crying, crying
Yeah, crying, crying over you



- Roy Orbison

Would You Please Let Me Know?

I know we haven't spoken for a while but I was just thinking about you and it kind of made me smile, there are so many things to say and I thought I could put them in a letter because it might be easier and the words might come out better.

I know I probably shouldn’t be telling you this but there are so many things I will like to know the answers to; like why did we let our love die, was it me, was it you, what did we do to kill it, did you ever loved me, was I just another one along the way, do you love someone else? I just wish I could press rewind and re-write every line of our story.I've been trying so hard to get you out of my mind in so many ways but it’s not getting any better as each day goes by. I feel lost and confused sometimes and the nights are really rough because loneliness can be your worst enemy when you have a heartbroken.

I know that you are doing fine and I really didn't mean to ramble on this again but there are so many feelings that remain since you've been gone; I guess you thought that I would put it all behind me by now but it seems there's always something right there to remind me of you like a stupid joke or something on the TV. Sometimes when I hear a song that reminds me of you I get that same old feeling and my heart just aches so badly and I wish that I could press rewind and turn back time to have you in my life again.

I still keep all of your pictures and I stare at them every now and then to try to remember how it felt when we use to be together, I try to erase the way your kisses taste but something like that cannot be forgotten that easily, they way that you used to touch me, look at me, your smell, your scent, your skin and those eyes that I could stare for hours and get lost in them.
Now that you’re gone waking up is hard to do and sleeping's impossible too, everything I do and everywhere I go it reminds me of you, it’s harder everyday and I feel like I've lost my equilibrium, my pride and my life because you took all that was left of me.
Why did you heal my heart when it was wounded, why did you fill it up when it was empty, why did you bring me back to life if you were going to kill me again?

Yes indeed, I'm alone again and here comes emptiness crashing on me. So now it's just another lonely day and I wish there was something that I could say or do to make you come back to me, I can resist anything but the temptation from you. Yesterday seems like a lifetime ago, because I held you so close in my heart and now you grow further from me with every fallen tear of my eyes.

I guess that now is too late to realize our mistake we're just not right for each other. Love has slipped away, left us only as friends and we almost seem like strangers, all that's left between us are the memories we shared of times we cared for each other. There's nothing left to do but go our separate ways and pick up all the pieces left behind us and start over. It wouldn't have worked out anyway; maybe someday, somewhere along the way another love will find us. In the mean time I will keep crying for you, lying awake at night, dreaming of you and calling your name. I know is too late to drag in the past but did I disappoint you or leave a bad taste in your mouth, did I ask too much, more than a lot?

My days break and my mind aches when I think of you because I find all the words of kindness you once said and they still linger on me. There are times when all the things you said fill-up my head I can’t forget you. So please if you don't love me like I love you return the love you took from me. But if you cry at night the way I do; would you please let me know?

JPablo Marín.

The truth

The truth can come in many shapes, sizes and colors it all depends on how we see it and it also can have many versions when it comes from different sources. Sometimes the truth can save an innocent life but it can also condemn someone; truth is a very difficult matter because what it actually does is that uncovers all of those secrets of it rips away our disguises and we found ourselves completely naked and vulnerable and it shows how we really are.

There’s a phrase on the Bible that says “The truth it will set you free” I never knew what that meant but now that I’m older and have a little more experience I do understand it and that’s why I want to expose myself like this and show how fragile but strong I am at the same time.

I am very adventurous and crazy at the same time and you never know where are you going to end up when you go out with me, energetic, brave, smart (about things that I like, the rest I don’t care), dynamic, I can be very selfish but no with the people I love and care about, very little patience, risk taker, passionate, romantic, idealistic, hate waiting around, inventive and with lots of courage, confident (sometimes), enthusiastic, sharp and quick-minded, fiery and warm, expressive, possessing, I have a string sense of urgency pretty much for everything I love (including sex), I can be self-centered at times, quick-tempered, impulsive and I take a lot of unnecessary risks.

This is who I really am without no masks, no disguises, no cover- ups, no need for lies or pretends, with my strengths and weaknesses and I don’t feel no shame about it because the combination of all of this things together make me the person that I am and I know that being the outcast that I am makes me happy.
Do you think you can handle it? …

JPablo Marin.

Won’t Let It Die!!!

I’ve been going through a lot of changes lately and also through some rough times and all of those things combined got me thinking a lot and I find myself in a controversy because it all got me very confused and skeptical about love.

I’m known for always being a dreamer, someone very romantic, passionate and a true believer of happy endings. Life has given me the opportunity of experience passion, lust, infatuation and love; on my path I met all of these great people that have taught me different things and brought happiness in my life in a way or another but as they say “Nothing In This World Is For Free”, they also took something from me: Some took my innocence, some my trust, some others my pride, my money and a only a few of them took little pieces of my heart.

Love is a very strange thing because supposedly it has nothing to do with the heart or feelings but actually from a chemical reaction of our bodies and brains; but if that’s true why does every time that we break up or someone hurts us we say that we have a heartache and we do feel a special kind of pain that cannot be compare with a physical one and that it hurts just as bad or sometimes even worse.

After so many heartaches and disappointments my illusions started to go away and I began to think that dreams were just that and that there are no happy endings only good moments as a good friend of mine said. I started to become coldhearted and build up some walls so no-one will hurt me again, but the truth is that I cannot change who I am and I am not giving up on the things that once were my strength and what motivated me to go on no matter how many times I failed. Nowadays relationships don’t last long enough or don’t work-out because of the lack of commitment and the ability of working things up, people somehow just decided to give up on what they had because they don’t want to fight for it and a soon as they find an obstacle on the road they take the one next to it that looks shorter and brighter. This kind of behavior scares me very much because soon there will be no more dreamers like me and it’s going to be just like with fairies; people will start saying that there’s no such thing as love and it’s going to drop dead in any moment and one day no-one will ever know that existed and it will be just another tale written in a book.

I don’t know who you are, where are you at, what things you like or dislike, what’s your favorite color or what’s your favorite movie but I want you to know since this very moment that I do believe in love and that I know that you are out there waiting for me and I am here waiting for you, I want you to know that I love you very much and that I know what we’ll be very happy together someday.

I am not giving up on you, on me, on us. Not going to give up on love. I’ll be here waiting for you and I hope that you’ll be waiting for me too. Live, believe, dream, enjoy and love because you never know when we will meet.

JPablo Marín B.

Staring at my window …

While I stare at my window and watch the rain fall down and listen to the relaxing sound of it I can’t stop thinking about everything that is outside; all of that world that I still don’t know, all of those people that I will never meet and all of the dreams that I haven’t fulfill. I never had a hard time letting people in because I tend to see the good in everyone and at least give them a chance but I have the toughest time when it comes to let someone go.

I guess that all I wanted to say is that it was good for me and I hope that it was good for you too, I Know that no matter what I’ll say it won’t change the way you feel. I know that we tried our best but sometimes love just slips out of sight and we can’t seem to find it.

There’s just one thing that I want you to know before you go, just one thing that you've got to know and is that no one will ever touch me that way that you did; I know that I’ll never be the same without you here and that I will hide myself behind my tears. I know that when it comes to love there is no guarantees, no alibis and that’s how love is supposed to be and not a re-creation of our minds. I thought that we were happy and even though “I know we could never stay together” I never gave up on hope, even though I know that you did a long time ago. I just can’t stop thinking about how it could have been if we could just start all over again?

I know it will take some time to get over you but only God knows how long. I think that as soon as my heart stops breaking, aching and anticipating one of your kisses or that one “I Love You” will slip away from your lips, I will be remembering all those good times, all of those promises we once made, all of those nights holding you close and feeling like I had heaven on earth.

Thank you for being there even when you were not, thank you for letting me love you and for all of those great memories that I will always cherish but most important thank you for trying to love me.

JPablo Marín.

Dear Sleepy Lover …

Nothing last forever and that´s what scares me; because every passing minute is chance to turn it all around either good or bad. But what is life without the bad experiences because we grow stronger from them and sweet is never as sweet without the without the taste of sour. That´s why I´m writing this letter as you lay next to me and I can´t stop staring at you.

I wish that I could be a singer to sing you the most beautiful song ever, I wish that I could be a painter to enhance your body and scent on my drawings so you´ll be with me all the time, I wish that I could be a famous writer and write the novel about love, about you, about me; about us and so the whole wide world would read about it and know how I feel about you.

I will like to take all of the stars from the sky and give them to you. A letter could never explain my feeling towards you because they are too big and different, I know that time goes by so fast and we don´t take the time to express our feelings; that we just take things for granted and that’s is why now that I have time I want you to know that I love you and that I am grateful for having you in my life and I will like to express it now that I have you with me.

I want to grow old with you, live in the same house with you, wake up every morning with your warm body next to mine and when I close my eyes to go to sleep the last thing that I’ll see is you beautiful face.
Sometimes we are so afraid to show our feeling because we don’t want to be hurt and so we keep them until we think that I will be safe to do so, but as the world spins so fast so is time along with it and if we don’t take the chance to look at the great things that life offer us we just miss them without even knowing that there were there all along; that is why I am taking my time now and see all that I have and when I look at you sleeping next to me and I hear you breath I can’t stop thinking about how lucky I am and I don’t want to waste another second to show you and tell you how much that I love you and I need you in my life.

As you lay on my bed and wonder in your own thoughts and dreams I write to you but now is the time to meet in dreams and continue our journeys always knowing that we are there for each other even if we don’t see the other with our own eyes because our hearts beat at the same pace and that’s how we communicate and find each other.

The compass is my heart and my north is you; dear sleeping lover.

JPablo Marin.

Have I told you lately that I love you?

Have I told you lately that I love you

Have I told you theres no one else above you

Fill my heart with gladness

Take away all my sadness

Ease my troubles thats what you do

For the morning sun in all its glory

Greets the day with hope and comfort too

You fill my life with laughter

And somehow you make it better

Ease my troubles thats what you do

Theres a love thats divine

And its yours and its mine like the sun

And at the end of the dayWe should give thanks and pray

To the one, to the one

Have I told you lately that I love you

Have I told you theres no one else above you

Fill my heart with gladness

Take away all my sadness

Ease my troubles thats what you do

Theres a love thats divine

And its yours and its mine like the sun

And at the end of the day

We should give thanks and pray

To the one, to the one

And have I told you lately that I love you

Have I told you theres no one else above you

You fill my heart with gladness

Take away my sadness

Ease my troubles thats what you do

Take away all my sadness

Fill my life with gladness

Ease my troubles thats what you do

Take away all my sadness

Fill my life with gladness

Ease my troubles thats what you do

(Song By Rob Steward)

Espero

Te espero cuando la noche se haga día,

suspiros de esperanzas ya perdidas.

No creo que vengas, lo sé,sé que no vendrás.

Sé que la distancia te hiere,sé que las noches son más frías,

Sé que ya no estás.

Creo saber todo de ti.

Sé que el día de pronto se te hace noche:

sé que sueñas con mi amor, pero no lo dices,

sé que soy un idiota al esperarte,pues sé que no vendrás.

Te espero cuando miremos al cielo de noche:

tu allá, yo aquí,

añorando aquellos díasen los que un beso marcó la despedida.

Quizás por el resto de nuestras vidas.

Es triste hablar así.

Cuando el día se me hace de nochey la luna oculta ese sol tan radiante.

Me siento solo, lo sé,nunca supe de nada tanto en mi vida,

sólo sé que me encuentro muy sóloy que no estoy allí.

Mis disculpas por sentir así,nunca mi intención ha sido ofenderte.

Nunca soñé con quererte,ni con sentirme así.

Mi aire se acaba como agua en el desierto.

Mi vida se acorta pues no te llevo dentro.

Mi esperanza de vivir eres túy no estoy allí.

¿Por qué no estoy allí?, te preguntarás,

¿Por qué no he tomado ese bus que me llevaría a ti?

Porque el mundo que llevo aquí no me permite estar allí.

Porque todas las noches me torturo pensando en ti.

¿Por qué no sólo me olvido de ti?

¿Por qué no vivo sólo así?

¿Por qué no sólo…

Mario Benedetti

The Bitch Is Back!!!

Britney Spears rocks internet with completely naked ‘Womanizer’ video appearance
Britney Spears’ completely naked appearance in ‘Womanizer’ video has hit the internet like the deep impacting celestial object that ended the Jurassic era on earth. The video features long shots of a completely naked Britney steaming herself writhing on a stone bench.

The video debuted on ABC’s 20/20 on Friday night, October 10, 2008.
Britney, 26, filmed the video on September 24 and 25, under the direction of Joseph Khan, who previously directed video clips for her singles "Stronger" and "Toxic".

Most viewers consider Womanizer much stronger and toxic than Khan’s earlier Britney videos.
In the video, Britney appears in multiple makeovers: a blonde sex kitten in a sexy bedtime robe with her bra showing, a sassy secretary with horn-rimmed glasses, a black bob, leather skirt and striped sweater, giving her co-worker a hard time, and a vampy waitress in black leather and brunet wig.

The single is the first released from Britney’s upcoming album Circus set to drop on December 2, Britney’s 27th birthday.
Source: swafsnews.

OMFG!!!!

10-02 You'll Always Live Within Our Hearts

Three years ago I lost someone that was very important to me; that was my best friend Hilda. She died at such a young age but even though she was very young when this happened I've always thought that she had such an old soul 'cause she was always very wise when she had to give me her advice, always with a smile on her face and her cheeks were always blushed. I learned so much from her and everyone that knew her really loved her and respect her, she was one of those persons that you'll always remember and wish to have around all the time.

Now she is gone but she'll always live in our memories and in our hearts and she's in a better place now where there's no pain and no suffering and people as special as her are always on earth for a short period of time with a mission and once they fulfill it they are ready to take their journey back where they belong; on heaven. My sweet and lovely angel thank you for sharing with me all of your wisdom and for light up my life in such way that changed forever the way I use to see things.

This poem is dedicated to you:

"HER JOURNEY'S JUST BEGUN"

by Ellen Brenneman

Don't think of her as gone away-

her journey's just begun,

life holds so many facets-

this earth is only one.

Just think of her as resting

from the sorrows and the tears

in a place of warmth and comfort

where there are no days and years.

Think how she must be wishing

that we could know today

how nothing but our sadness

can really pass away.

And think of her as living

In the hearts of those she touched

For nothing loved is ever lost -

And she was loved so much.

A Day to Celebrate!!!

"Our Love Still Grows"

Our anniversary means a lot,

Much more than any another day;

I celebrate my love for you,

And cherish you in every way.

Through passing time,

our love still

grows;

It lasts through all good times and

bad.

Our future together still shines

bright,

With more good times to be had!

By Karl Fuchs

PD:

This is for you,

for us and for all the love that we share!

Wish that we'll be together for much longer!

Isn't It Cool?

I was just going around the net looking for new things like I always do when I don't have shit to do and I get bored and I was so surprised when I found this cute Little bears but at the same time funny, gross and even a bit dareful. This bears come in a different a big variety and some of then could even offend some people but I love them so

I just leave 'em for you here and you'll decide weather you like it or not. Here's a bit of history of how the creator came up with the idea:

HISTORY
____________________________________________________________________

Late one night in 1994, Peter Underhill, an illustrator and Graphic Designer from Coventry, was designing a range of cutesy bears to be printed onto little girl's pyjamas.

To clear his head after becoming "All cuted out" he drew his first ever Bad Taste Bear, "Hey kiddies! Here's the chainsaw bear!" He enjoyed drawing it so much that he started putting a list together and drawing and painting bears in "interesting" situations as a release for his twisted imagination.

In 1999, the BT Bear Company discovered the range and turned them into collectable figurines. They began with just the first six figurines on sale in the Gadget Shop, UK. Within the first year, the range increased to twelve figurines and in the months that followed, due to an increasing demand, they launched a collectors club to provide a point of contact for the Bad Taste Bear fans.

The rest as they say is history... Hundreds of collectables and tens of thousands of collectors later and here we are, together, involved in something that we never thought would be such a phenomenon.Here are some of the most famous ones:

Here's the link to Bad Taste Bear: http://badtastebears.com/